Today is just one of them days that remind me of when i was in high school and hated everyone.  All i have to say is i just dont get it.  How can i forgive but not be forgiven. How can you love and not forgive. How?

The only thing keeping me functioning is working and my treadmill.  The only motivation i have is money.  I had so much more and its gone because of one fuck up. So i mailed a package and left a voicemail that hurt so bad to leave and i know i am a good guy. Karma is what i live by and i will get someone who means it when they say they love me.

 I hate today

3 Comments

1. Shawn, April 29, 2007:

   after talking to you last night i saw this coming. hold it together man,do not have a breakdown. All of your friends love you including me.

   You will meet the real man of your dreams when its meant to happen, until then you have to go through trial and error. if he is the guy for you, then it will happen. if he is not, then you will meet who you are meant to meet.

   Love you bitch
   Shawn

2. Ami, April 30, 2007:

   I know how hard it is and you are hurting. I love you. We all love you. I also know that nothing and no one can fill the hole that is left by the one you love, but please know you are loved and you WILL overcome this. Stronger than ever.
   You truly are the greatest and most wonderful person I have EVER known and anyone who thinks otherwise, is crazy. You will NEVER be alone. I know there is someone out there for you who will love you wholey and unconditionally. The way you need them to love you. When the time is right, it will happen.
   In the meantime, look around you. Notice the people who truly love you. the ones that will be there forever, regardless of any situation.
   Some people just can’t see the good, until its to late, until they have lost it forever. And you are the good..
   I love you, I am here for you. always.

3. Chris, May 9, 2007:

   Hey….newcomer to your blog though I am…and I don’t know you or your situation; I hope you’re doing ok. I am happily single for a year and a half and I have been taking this time to absorb and understand the lessons I have learned from every guy I’ve dated. They could be so loving and accepting of me one moment and then insulting and degrading the next. Anyway, sorry to drone on about myself.

   You seem to be a talented and attractive guy and someone will come your way and appreciate you…I know that doesn’t make the pain you’re feeling right now any easier to handle.

   Chris